Thursday, January 8, 2009

Rebeling Against Myself

Well. I may have hit rock bottom. I'll let you know when I have determined that I am there. The only way to go is up though. Unless I fall into a magma chamber, then the only way to go is all the way of the earth. (Joke, ha ha....)

I am academically suspended. The past three semesters haven't been exactly the best for me, having lower than a 2.0 GPA each semester. Last semester was looking up, but I tripped on the 1 yard line in the 4th down of the last second of play. So now I academically suspended.

Which means, as I work for BYU, that I have no job as I am not a student technically anymore.

My cumulative GPA is higher than a 2.0, which means I qualify for the Fast Track back option, meaning if I complete 12 credits of Independent Study I can take classes again in the Fall.

So now that leaves me to fight against my emotions, to fight against hopelessness and put in the good fight, maintaining a good attitude and not giving myself over to overwhelming despair. It means being cheerful and remembering to hang out with friends so as to not get lost within myself too much.

It means I need to find a job so I can pay for classes and still pay rent, unless I decide to go back and live with my family in Tooele. Which may mean selling my housing contract.

It means not giving up and doing all that I can do.

It means not dwelling on the past, forgiving myself for slacking, amid other things.

So I'll let you know how that goes.

Oh, and if I do start talking in third person, developing a taste for raw fish and referring to some ring, or other object as my precious, I give you full license to barge in and rescue me. Also if I suggest a Lord of the Rings Marathon because of all the time I have, please slap me silly. And let's hope I really don't fall into a Volcano.


yellow m&m said...

I'm rooting for you. Don't give up. You can do it. I'll try to find time to hang out, so we can both get some sort of socializing.

Raw fish = gross. Always remember this, and you should do fine. Also, the ring is mine, and you can't have it.

Sam, The Nanti-SARRMM said...

Hmmn... You wouldn't mind if I take a look at it would you? Maybe give it to me for a birthday present? After all, my birthday is coming up, and I wants it.


yellow m&m said...

You didn't get me anything for my birthday...

Sam, The Nanti-SARRMM said...

You haven't had your party yet.

yellow m&m said...

Well, maybe I should. Except I have to hijack someone else's house. Or other place to have it.

Green Giant said...

i'm cheering for ya G-Fry :D

AllofYourBaseAreBelongToUs said...

Hey buddy ole pal.

We're really going to miss you at work. There are few things more enjoyable than coming into work early in the morning and finding you almost passed out on the floor after a fit of laughter :) I don't know what we'll do with out our Sam. Well buckle down and work hard. You can do it. Anyone that can give two years of their life and serve like you did has the strength to over come anything this life can through at you. Let me know if you need nay help with any thing. I'm more than happy to help.

katydid said...

Well, I believe in you. I think you'll do fine.
*annoying Dory voice*
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...

Anonymous said...

Why are you saying you're going to have so much free time? If you really want things to change, you better buckle down and get to work on your IS classes. Treat school like your full-time job. I'm pretty sure you're not flunking out because you're stupid; I'm pretty sure it's because you're just not putting in the work. Now go to the library and do your homework!

-your guardian angel

Sam, The Nanti-SARRMM said...

Well my good Anonymous person, you hit it on the nail.

It is my fault, due to time management, procrastination, and other things that I am suspended, so there is indeed nothing to do but to do it.

And thanks to you all for your support.