After all this time I think something dawned on me. I'm scared of girls. Well, to be more precise, white girls scare me.
No, not the type of scare associated with jumping out of the shadows and shouting 'boo!' but the intimidated type of scare. Where all confidence melts and suddenly your a simmering puddle of goo wondering what to do, considering now that I'm single. I think I finally pinpointed it. I actually realized it after ward prayer today, because at the beginning of Ward Prayer two Hispanic girls from Mexico were introduced as part of an apartment spotlight and after which I was able to go and talk to them easily, and kid around with them just fine. Then when I went to talk with some other girls I knew; Americans, Gringas, it was kind of forced conversation and very limited.
I think I need to look more into this...
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